Thursday, July 21, 2005

I think your Postive

Inspired by Frank's post:

I don't recall when... but I remember reading in Vibe Magazine, they published an article about the CDC announcement, that one out of three black SGM were HIV positive. It also informed me that 33% don't even know that they are positive. This news was extremely alarming to me.

On August 27, 2005, will mark my second year from abstaining from penetrated sex. Although, I have an high sex drive the news that I just mentioned cautioned me greatly. I'm not going to lie, I have engaged myself with low risk activity with multiple people since then, but the thought of contracting HIV/AIDS in a matter of simple pleasure drives me INSANE. Yes, there have been many moments that things was just about to happen without protection, fortunately it never occured.

As a conscious brother last year was my first time getting tested. YES! After messing around from 1995 to 2004, I never got tested. First of all, I didn't think there was a need to because I was using proctection. Secondly, I didn't want to know because the fear of living my entire life knowing I was going to die form AIDS. The last two months I've been procratinating about getting tested. Although, I dont' do much, there is still risk involved. And quite frankly, I will always be scared each time I am tested.

I have many friends that after a week or two of being sexually involved with someone and maybe even taking a STD test would end up having unprotected sex. As the disease continues to plague our community, it is still preventable. It pisses me off that the CDC announce that 46% of black “gay” men in New York City, Baltimore, Los Angeles, San Francisco and Miami are HIV positive. With all the problems that going on in our community, I believe its the most preventable. Wrap your shyt up!

We have no self-worth or apprear to be stupid! After so much talk about HIV/AIDS we still partake in HIGH RISK ACTIVITY. Even people who have posted on Franks blog will continue to do what they want to do. They still won't get tested. They still won't try to urge their friends. And some are HIV Positive and won't even disclose this information to their sexual partners.

What's really good? Frank pointed out what Brother West preached about... Nihilism. Nihilism is concept meant to describe "Life without meaning, hope, and love [which] breeds a coldhearted, mean-spirited outlook that destroys both the individual and others." The people in our community have injected far too much Nihilism into their spirits.

I'm getting tested next week and going to try to get three friends to go with me. My brothers and sisters they aren't going to help us end this epidemic, we must step up to the plate and SAVE Our Selves (SOS)!

Spread the word!

Your brother in the struggle,

Smiling

5 Comments:

At 11:55 AM, Blogger The Foxybrown Show said...

Keep doing what you're doing baby! Although my show promotes all kinds of sexual activity (protected of course) you are valid in stating it is nerve wrecking that something so dramatic can be cause by one climatic encounter. Stay focused, Stay true and above all Stay Safe!

Holla back on the blog!

 
At 6:04 PM, Blogger Frank León Roberts said...

Thank you for this Smiling. You already know that you and I are on the exact same page on this issue.

 
At 12:00 AM, Blogger Valentino said...

I feel you Smiling...

 
At 1:40 PM, Blogger Dirk said...

I wonder if its possible to get AIDS/HIV from oral?

 
At 5:49 PM, Blogger mytruth said...

I'm just amazed....I added a post to help with the awareness. It's not so much about men having sex with men, but it's about people and risky behaviorand their lack or responsibility.

 

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