Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Random Things About Me

Stolen from Emotional Brother

10 Things about me

I love debating
Very Competitive
I am stupid funny
Extremely compassionate
I love to do research on anything
Been to jail for 6 days from protesting against the RNC
I am my worst critic
Had a dream to perform on Broadway... (as Coalhouse in Ragtime)
I love political campaigns
Movies are very therapeutic for me

9 Ways To Win My Heart

Order a chicken sandwich w/o Mayo for me without me telling you no mayo
Pray with me
Random acts of thoughfulness
Have compassion for all of me
Show affection
Let me in- in your darkest hour
Knowledge of social or political issues
Hold me while we watching a movie
Give me the love that I've only dreamt of

8 Things I want to Do Before I die
Figure out Life
Become closer to God
Learn patience
Build a strong network of people from every field of human endeavor
Establish a national social program assisting the urban community
Produce a stage produce/tv show (i can dream, lol)
Keep my good friends and meet some new ones along the way
BE HAPPY

7 Things I Believe In

One person can make a difference
Without Stuggle there is not Progress
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
Equality
Karma
Work Hard/Play Hard
LOVE

6 Things that get me MAD

Smacking on the telephone
Tardiness
Inconsideration
Ignorance
My mothers voice on the phone
all of this isms

5 Things I'm afraid of

Sudden Death
HIV/AIDS
The destruction of our urban communities - Gang Violence
Failure
Being poor again

4 of my favorite Items in my room

The mirror w/o me in it, lol
African painting
Computer
TV

3 Things I do everyday

Check e-mail
Think about what I need to do to get myself together
Thank God for waking me up

2 Things I need to do right now

Laundry (wearing the last pair of clean drawers)
Win the Lottery

1 Person I want to see Right now

A True Friend


Please click on Random Things About Me... there is an alarming article about Bush Cutting 1 billion in anti-gang funds... check it out

Shawty.... say what's your price

I miss my boy, Shawty, this time last year we were bugging out all the time. Since our relationship crumbled (see Feb. 25th post) He crosses my mind at least twice a week.

I didn't blog about our last encounter. Well, it was the day, Their Eyes Are Watching God premiered. He texted me, "We need to talk." I told him I would be available at 11pm, because I didn't want to miss the movie. So, he came in around 11, we gave a brief wassup and the movie was still on.... he asked for some ice... I gave it to him... I act very nonchalant, while watching the movie... he uses the ice on his face... I knew something happened but I didn't want to ask him... By 11:15pm I knew the movie would end around 11:30. (Their eyes are watching god, is one of my favorite books and I really wanted to see the movies.) We still haven't said anything! He walks out around 11:19 and says, "I'm out."

What he did to me back in Feb was what was on my mind. Looking back on this, I was/am totally wrong for what I did. Two wrongs don't make it right. Two weeks later, I texted him and invited him to my B-Day Bash. He said he was coming, but never showed up. It didn't bother me much, because I've been doing my own thing.

Something (u know who) told me to text Shawty on my way to the doctors, Monday. I text him, I would like to meet up. So, tonight after my second job we are meeting up at my apt. I'm much stronger than yesterday. I don't want to come off like I don't need him. I just want to extend my hand of friendship. I'm sure it will not be the same as it were before. On the other hand, it would be GREAT to have him back in my life.

I have to leave my pride in the closet when he comes over. Part of me wants to say, "You started this shyt first," while the other part of me wants to give that little man a huge hug as soon as I see him. I don't know how this is going to pan out.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Grey's Anatomy

I have returned to work today. Finally, the doctor gave me some antibiotics. Trying not to stress over finals or all the other due dates that are fastly approaching.

The last five weeks I've been watching Grey's Anatomy. Bloggers are y'all watching? This show is executive produced, written and created by a SISTA. Sista Shonda Rhimes is best known as the writer of Introducing Dorothy Dandridge. Anyways, the show is off the CHARTS. My mom and I have been addicted since the beginning. We have to support this sister who created a show that apprears right after the highly related Despearate Housewives.

One thing that I love about this show is the cast, extremely diverse. Black folks (yes, not just one) in places of power in the medical field on TV. Support a Sista!

Sunday, April 24, 2005

It's MINE!

**********Funny Story before I getting into my victory, lol************
At church today, I sat on the second floor last row because my facial hair is looking a HOT MESS, plus I'm sick. First five minutes I sat alone. Black folks late for church, I sit next to a six year old boy and a twentysomething woman. During alter prayer, I smelled something funky. I wondered if it was me, then i thought the woman farted. But, I notice the little boy kept on farting. I overheard the woman telling her male escort that I smelled. IT WAS SO FUNNY! After tithes and offerings were done, the woman moved her seat. I really do know how to hold gas in church, LOL.

I haven't been feeling well for the past couple of weeks. As I departed b-more last sunday, my headaches started to occur more consistent. Not to mention, my allergies are a MESS. I went to the doctor monday afternoon, he said that I'm having migranes that are not connected with my allergies, he also gave me three prescriptions. When I picked them up from the pharmacy, I asked the pharmacist which one was suppose to help my headaches. He responded, "All of your prescriptions are for you allergies."

I left the store and had a TANTRUM. It was bad, like, Joan Crawford in Mommy Dearst! I was PISSED. As I drove home in pain, the BIG person in my head was asking God for help. I came home and posted Smiling's Manifesto. Although, I still had my migranes I felt much better.

Since then, I've missed worked three days. Finally, received some medication for my migranes. Been to the hospital twice, went to the ER on Friday. There are other things wrong, that I'm not getting into.

But, my fever didn't prevent me from going to church today. My Pastor is doing 12 steps in order to walk in VICTORY! I found a new Rejoice! You know how the pastor can just call on your current battles and you feel compelled to praise. Today, my rejoice was thanking God that I'm living my life in VICTORY. I think I been through every single battle that Pastor preached about today. But, I'm not experiencing none of the battles, besides health. I didn't feel like singing along with the congregation, "Oh Hail, King Jesus!" All I could do was smile with thankfulness that with his strength VICTORY IS MINE!

Monday, April 18, 2005

Smiling's Manifesto

Never forget your inner self. Life shall be hard. Life shall bring happiness. Don’t let anyone break your happiness. Remember you have come this far by faith. Remember overcoming so many uncontainable obstacles. Relax. Relate. Release. Stand. When times are rough, look towards future, for the future is a sunny day without pollen. Don’t worry about what other people have to say. Cry. Shout. Rejoice. Smile. There is someone out there for you. Never forget family and loved ones. Keep your eyes on the prize. It’s ok to be vulnerable. Time will surrender all of your goals. Take Risks. You can do all things though Christ who strengthens you. You are a Friend of God.

I strive for consistent happiness. These are the words that I will say out loud and believe them. I am quite sure I will forget from time to time, but don’t hesitate to remind me.

I am back from my brief hiatus!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Coming back soon!!!!

Mariah's CD -TIGHT

I have spoken, LOL!

Friday, April 01, 2005

As-Salaamu 'alaikum

Dang, I can't even tell you how appreciative I am for all of the comments I've received on my blog. It has helped me more than I could have ever imagine. I am departing from posting for a while.

This blog has been a form of therapy for me.. constantly allowed to vent. I begin my hiatus. Peace, Love and Soul!

Thanks for everything!

Smilingonthedl

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