Miles To Go Before I Rest
idolize productivity to the point where it covers our mind," said
my Deacon, last night at bible study. This statement hits home
right now. I'm stuck on being successful no matter what.
Unfortunately, I am willing to take on things that begin to have me
stressed out. It becomes a priority to be at the right spot, in the
right organization and know the right people.
Most times, I feel as though I'm doin the damn thing. I
constantly make sure my name is out in the community, in efforts to
promote myself and to anything I'm attaching my name. This prevents
me from truly taking care of myself. I place my needs second to the
needs of others and organizations. I stress myself out to the point
where I feel like giving up and just doing NOTHING. Tired. Tired of
just living an unfulfilled life because home is so empty at the end
of the day.
As stated in a previous post, I've been chillin by myself
the last few days, trying to figure out what's really good!
Yesterday, I took myself out to a diner before bible study and
headed to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and smiled. Said to
myself, "Smiling, you can get it." Lol, sike nah. I just stared at
myself and thanked God. Early that day, I was given some alarming
news involving me personally. Of course, I called two friends, but
I forgot to pray about it.
At bible study, the facilitator talked about how often we seek out
people for advice instead of asking God. Talked about how we
received earthy wisdom in lieu of righteous wisdom. But, most
importantly, he talked about Standing Still, The Battle Belongs To
My desire to Be All That I Can Be stresses me the F**K out. But,
yesterday I was told the Word tells us that faithful will bring
forth Fruit. It is a struggle to give all of my worries to the
Lord. Im naturally a worrier (I blame this on my mother).
Things Im going to work towards in order to live a Righteous
1. Choose to Pray over my battles, instead of worrying over them.
This will help release my conflicts unto the Lord
2. In my prayers seek wisdom. JC will provide me with the strength
3. Choose to control my tongue. Know when to listen and when to
talk. I love to talk and listen. But, I want to listen more than I
4. Choose to love. Im a firm believer that love will set you
free. I would like to strengthen my will to love my enemy and
myself in times of despair.
5. Last night, I decided to go on a seven-day liquid fast (FYI
Eat after 6pm.)
Now I pray for His wisdom and guidance as I walk in VICTORY!
Its a tough world, but with JC on my side, yall
better watch out!